love is the answer

i don't have a problem with people having sex for money, as long as they're ok with it. god knows i've considered the same thing. i think i maybe even blogged about being not good looking enough to be an escort.

so now i'm sure that i don't like A at all. i guess i'm also sure that she doesn't like me either. so am i just nursing my bruised ego by saying that i never really liked her when in reality it's cos i know she doesn't really like me?

am i judging her? i really shouldn't. i guess i just can't really believe it. i mean, she was just talking about it, considering it, toying with the idea last week. if it doesn't bother her than it doesn't bother me. and that was totally how i felt when she told me.

i always feel so ... empty after hanging out with her. is empty the right word? like it just reinforces the notion that i feel like i don't fit in anywhere.

right... i believe this post was titled Love Is the Answer. and it is man. it is.
- Experience is enough, just pay enough attention
- Living is action. Living is experience. Happiness and well-being is experience.
- Experience a raw sense of infinite significance (love?)

The ultimate quality of experience is linked to Nondiscriminating Love
- love everything in totality: yourself, your surroundings, your goals
- interconnectedness does exist: starving children are connected to us (our lack of actions perhaps?)